Surely everyone is wondering, where has T R Lykins disappeared to? To answer everyone’s question, I am still here. Last year, life threw me a curve ball that hit me real hard. Life can change in a moment and end in a twinkle of an eye. Within a span of a week, my husband at the time told me he wanted a divorce and that the girl he was seeing was worth more than his boys and me. The same week, another blow came my way. Doctors told me, my dad was going to die. In one month, I lived through the nightmare of losing my dad and going through a horrible divorce, which was also a death.
Since, I had to go through these battles; I had to put off writing for a while. I did write some short poems to help me overcome what I was going through. These are personal and I may share them at some point. My life was turned upside down, and I had to be strong for the one guy who was there for me, my dad. He died; not knowing that the one guy he thought was going to take care of me wasn’t even there. It was more important to me that my dad’s last days be focused on being happy and with family who loved him. My dad didn’t need to worry about me, because God was in control of my life, even then. I had to be strong for my dad, and he deserved it until the end. He died a month after he told me he wasn’t feeling well and I got to be there for him every day. I would not have changed a thing. His last words were spoken to me, “I’ll see you over yonder.” This gave me comfort knowing he was going to heaven and plans on seeing me there one day. I live my life every day the way God wants me to, so I’ll make it there one day. Yes, I may mess up, but I always ask for forgiveness and do the right things to make it to heaven.
It took several long months for my divorce to be final. Since then, I have forgiven my ex for everything and have moved on. God has helped me to forgive and has brought happiness and peace back into my life. The only thing that still bothers me is that my ex still doesn’t want a relationship with his boys. This is something I encourage both of my boys to do, but they both continue to have this door slammed in their face daily. I pray that God will heal this relationship for both my boys; only God can help with this, and I pray that my boys will be happy. My boys are working to get their happiness back and they are getting there also, day by day.
Why haven’t I been writing and when will I write again? The reason I haven’t been writing is because my day job requires me to sit in front of a computer for eight hours. When I get home, I really don’t want to look at a computer. I will write again soon. I am starting to find some time to write and I really want to finish Gabriel’s story (Gabriel’s Many Gifts). It has been started and the book cover for it is amazing. I want to finish it so everyone can see the awesome book cover!!! I will finish the story soon, I promise. I want to write an autobiography about the person who is in my life now, so that may be a future story. By the way, I have written a short story that may be part of an anthology someday about mermaids.
What is going on in my life now? God blessed me with a wonderful guy who has put a smile back on my face and my heart feels alive. Every day he has helped me to be whole, and helped me to be a better person. Every day he helps guide me closer to God by challenging me to seek God more and through daily bible verses. He is a preacher and pastor, and I’m grateful that he is. God brings people into your life for a reason, and God has blessed me with someone who helps me win my battles that I go through daily. We all go through them, but being blessed with someone to help you, is a true blessing. Mountains will be moved, and healings will happen, when you give your life to God, and trust in Him. I know that no man will help me to grow spiritually, because that is all on me. Right now my life’s goal is to grow to be more like Christ. What will happen with this relationship that God has blessed me with? Only God knows that answer, because I trust in God to lead me on the right path. I do love this guy, and only time and God, knows what’s next for me.
When I started writing my novels, I never knew what it meant to fully give yourself to a book. Every author puts a little bit of their selves into a story, not knowing that we do this from time to time. Our emotions are fully wrapped up into every word we bring to life in a story. My conscious never would let me write anything that I would ever be ashamed of, no bad language, no hot sex scenes, and nothing violent. I could not rightfully bring a story to life that I could not let my name to be a part of or let my kids or someone else’s kid to read. I never want to be a bad influence to anyone, whether it is an adult or young person. My stories are for the young at heart, even if you are much older with a young heart. I have been told that I am a responsible adult who has a young heart this is what is reflected in my stories. I have been told that my stories haven’t been for some people, which I totally understand. Some people like more dark stories, which my stories aren’t. The way I write my stories is how I speak, and some people don’t like it, but that is okay. Putting yourself into the public eye is a brave thing to do, but I did it, and not everyone will like you for it. All I can say is to be brave, and trust in yourself, and do what you want to do, but do it the right way with a good conscious. If you have an opinion, there is the right way to express an opinion without making a person feel bad.
Hopefully, my readers will be patient with me until I finish my next story for them. If you need something to read before I finish, please check out the authors who inspire me. I have a whole list and their website’s are on the right hand side of my blog, just click the link.
Meanwhile, I will leave you with something that God shared with me while on my life’s journey.
Psalm 90.4 For a thousand years in thy sight are but as yesterday when it is past, (Time doesn’t mean the same to humans as it does for God. We can’t comprehend what time really means.)
1 Corinthians 15.52 In a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trump: for the trumpet shall sound, and the dead shall be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed. (Life can change in a moment and life can end with a twinkle of an eye.) Live a life for God and always be ready. Tell the ones you love that you love them and never let them wonder if you do. Never wait until tomorrow because tomorrow may never come.
Never wait until tomorrow because tomorrow may never come. I love all my readers and the ones who know me personally know this to be true. What is next? I will put it in God’s hands and let’s be patient together and wait and see….
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Thank you for sharing this, Tina. It takes an awful lot of courage to open up & share the details of our lives when we’ve been doing battle. I’m sorry to hear about your struggles & I’m so sorry for your loss. I have no doubt that God’s hand is on your life & He will bless you, as he did Job, with even more than what you’ve lost. I look forward to hearing about all the wonderful things He’s doing in your life. Again, thanks for sharing & God bless.
Thank you so much!! You wonderful comment makes me happy to share what’s happening in my life. Everything is in God’s hands and I will continue to trust in Him. God bless you!!
The Lord never gives us more than we can handle. I know sometimes we question this but, after the storm we see He was with us the whole time carrying us.
Thank you for sharing your personal story. The Lord has certainly blessed you and carried you. I pray that your sons father will want a relationship with them. He will most certainly regret that someday if he does not. There is no love like the love of a child.
I too lost my Dad in the span of a month last year. It was devastating to us but, to him….he was so ready to go home. He loved the Lord so very much. You could see it in his eyes. He and Mom are with God now and, we will join them one day. A joyful day that will be. Praise God for all He has given us!
Keeping you in prayer. God bless you and your family.
Thank you so much for the wonderful inspirational comments and your prayers. You are right God never put to much on us that we can’t handle, but He is getting us stronger and ready for the next part of our lives and to do His works. Sorry that you to lost your dad. My dad let me know where he was going the day before he died and I look forward to see him again in heaven. Yes it will be a joyful day!! I too praise God for all He has done and all that He will do!! We can’t make it without Him!! I’ll keep you in my prayers also. God bless you!!
T.R.- sorry about the setbacks but all things pass. Celebrating your dad’s life will help you deal with his death. As far as the ex…relationships, unfortunately, come and go, but I only hope he wakes up and recognizes the importance his kids will mean to him over a lifetime, for their sake as well as his. There’s hope there if he will just look at it. Drive on. My second thriller finally is out this week and Ky Book Fair next. It’s a journey. Keep writing.
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